It been a long hard winter in so many ways and realizing my situation is probably the better part . Am glad otheres are here to support and help me too. Things do carry on an i miss a lot of friends i made here too. Hope to blog more very soon .

restart

hello
I had a quick release on july 2 .and was very quickly relocked . well was 100 days locked that time. Now im back on the lock again and realy noticing it this time

the cb5000

After many weeks locked in now it finally started to adjust and realize its not so bad remaining locked and with out erections.
also seem to be improving with the heart meds and feeling better most of the time.
probably will get a clear sign to go back to work this thursday too

chastity devices

Hello all last night decided to go back to the cb3000 device as the 5000 is painful in the piercing area as it hangs on so much to that prince albert piercing . So the cb300 is back in place and it seems it going to be good for a while .

relocking today

It has been a while and do feel the need to become chaste for a period. So pulled out the cb5000 and quietly applyed it this morning . The spring urges are sometimes overpowering so just falling in love with my hand will not work for a while .

new device

Hello everyone actually got a release on the 14 of feb and was permitted penatration with wife.
Now the new device cb5000 is in full useage and it does hook ingto the 2 ga prince albert piercing very well. Cleaning is a bit tough but has a few good points as far as being less of a ball trap unit.
Well relocked and feeling good about it so will see how long it goes . The keyholder doesnt like to tell me when or how long i will remain locked its mre to her needs.

feb 10

Well its a dreary snowey febuary day and feel sort of stuck right now. Got to say things go on for now feeling horney and cant do much . guess this is how its going to be for a while .

back in town

Hello all been out of town. and just returned. Hope to remain locked a little longer now i got a good time started as being locked over a week now. Feel the need yet and want to have a good release but am trying to hold off.

heart issues

Well the heart seems to be improving due to the change in meds im currently on. Am hopefull
that the ejection fraction is improving too but still dont know. Am enjoying the time off for the most part .have been chaste a lot of the time also so keep in touch too. gerry

in chastity

Well just got back in town and relocked for the next few weeks hope to enjoy somes special times too

my pacemaker defibulator

Well had a doctors visit today about heart issue. His statement was im a good canidate for a pacemaker combo defibulator inplant.
While in still not having any particular real issues or problems. I get out of breath easily with serious exirtion. But i can tolerate it right now and im not so sure im ready for a little computer inside my chest.
Well the doctor said I could continue as I have with a fine tuned med regime. and he would check again next month to see if im inproving or loosing ground. I have been running on treadmill dayily and it seems to be getting a little better and a little longer each day.
Erections are nonexistant at this time and feel a bit disapointed about that but it beats pushing up flowers in the spring.

heart problems

Well guess its one of the signs of aging i have aquired. Seems my heart out put is low. The word ejection fration seems to be the key word now.The heart output is based on nembers like 35 percent or 45 percent ejection fraction. Seems that mine is down to 25-30 percent and if i do streious activity i get winded quickly (much like sex) well also it causes less blood to flow out and erections are less sadly. Well hope to get my blood pump strenghened with changes in drugs and some physical activity.

heart issues

hello
On thursday the 12th i got to experiance what medically is called a TEE .
The doctor put a small camara down my throat to check on my heart valve action.
Well on friday the 13 i got his results . Not what i hoped for . He said the valve action was sort of ok . But he cant explain the poor ejection fraction 30 percent .
So now on tuesday i get a necular stress test to see if the blood is properly feeding my heart muscle under physical work (treadmill) .
If i pass that i get to look toward a pacemaker to make heart properly contract and push the blood out. (oh joy)

life has changes

Hello to everyone . As some of you know i had a problem with a virus that attacked my heart muscle back in 2001. Its called cardiomyopthy. and we beleave it was from a teeth cleaning proceedure where the plaque that is remove from ones teeth enters the blood stream in very small amounts .
Well this microrginisum seedled in my heart muscle and deterioted it.
Then it slowly lessened the output or ejection fraction of my heart . This caused me to walk a short distance and be out of breath.
this was treated by a number of different meds i still am taking today.
Today i went to my heart doctor and remarked that i was getting out of breath occasionally . he did a echo cartiogram on me and says my heart valves are pooly fitting and may need replace or some new meds.
So on 11-12-09 im due for a transseophageal echocardiogram (TEE)
A small ?? device is placed down my throat and they will take pictures of my heart on the back side to deturmine what needs to be done.
so for now in unlocked and forbidden to handle myself unless its to attend normal shower or toilet functions

new chastity device

Hello to all the followers again. This time i think i have forund a good device that keeps my self abuse to a minimum and its not bad to wear.
The cb5000 seems to fit well and currently its keeping my play stopped except for some minor drippage its doing well for now . The others were not comfortable and always required special attention when sitting and standing . So in in for now gerry

leg surgery

Hello all had some right lower leg surgery lazer type work. Had some feel good stuff but was awake. Now the drugs are wearing off and it does hurt . Hope it doesnt get much worse . Not feeling very horney tonight at all.

short out of device time

Hello today im released from device i feel naked and alone right now. no erection just a quiet bliss that seems good. feel i will be needing to be relocked in about 7 hrs so for now all is good.no urges to attend and will be at work for 6 hrs at least.

remain secure

This week has been somewhat tougher as the horneyness has increased .Still need to stay in control. things are rolling along its much cooler and ball sack is drawing up too.Do feel the chastity is much closer to my body lately also. Well got to expect some changes as weather starts to cool too.

Well things are relaxing somewhat . The plastic is much more tolerable since the weather has cooled some too. Do feel it in pants and always notice it when the excitement levels increase. Well that what its for also

Hello again , Today was uneventful. i feel i sort of got my head rearaged for the chastity time thats ahead of me Its starting to be less of a problem over all .