Tuesday, December 29, 2009

in chastity

Well just got back in town and relocked for the next few weeks hope to enjoy somes special times too

Thursday, December 17, 2009

my pacemaker defibulator

Well had a doctors visit today about heart issue. His statement was im a good canidate for a pacemaker combo defibulator inplant.
While in still not having any particular real issues or problems. I get out of breath easily with serious exirtion. But i can tolerate it right now and im not so sure im ready for a little computer inside my chest.
Well the doctor said I could continue as I have with a fine tuned med regime. and he would check again next month to see if im inproving or loosing ground. I have been running on treadmill dayily and it seems to be getting a little better and a little longer each day.
Erections are nonexistant at this time and feel a bit disapointed about that but it beats pushing up flowers in the spring.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

heart problems

Well guess its one of the signs of aging i have aquired. Seems my heart out put is low. The word ejection fration seems to be the key word now.The heart output is based on nembers like 35 percent or 45 percent ejection fraction. Seems that mine is down to 25-30 percent and if i do streious activity i get winded quickly (much like sex) well also it causes less blood to flow out and erections are less sadly. Well hope to get my blood pump strenghened with changes in drugs and some physical activity.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

heart issues

On thursday the 12th i got to experiance what medically is called a TEE .
The doctor put a small camara down my throat to check on my heart valve action.
Well on friday the 13 i got his results . Not what i hoped for . He said the valve action was sort of ok . But he cant explain the poor ejection fraction 30 percent .
So now on tuesday i get a necular stress test to see if the blood is properly feeding my heart muscle under physical work (treadmill) .
If i pass that i get to look toward a pacemaker to make heart properly contract and push the blood out. (oh joy)

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

life has changes

Hello to everyone . As some of you know i had a problem with a virus that attacked my heart muscle back in 2001. Its called cardiomyopthy. and we beleave it was from a teeth cleaning proceedure where the plaque that is remove from ones teeth enters the blood stream in very small amounts .
Well this microrginisum seedled in my heart muscle and deterioted it.
Then it slowly lessened the output or ejection fraction of my heart . This caused me to walk a short distance and be out of breath.
this was treated by a number of different meds i still am taking today.
Today i went to my heart doctor and remarked that i was getting out of breath occasionally . he did a echo cartiogram on me and says my heart valves are pooly fitting and may need replace or some new meds.
So on 11-12-09 im due for a transseophageal echocardiogram (TEE)
A small ?? device is placed down my throat and they will take pictures of my heart on the back side to deturmine what needs to be done.
so for now in unlocked and forbidden to handle myself unless its to attend normal shower or toilet functions

Friday, October 30, 2009

new chastity device

Hello to all the followers again. This time i think i have forund a good device that keeps my self abuse to a minimum and its not bad to wear.
The cb5000 seems to fit well and currently its keeping my play stopped except for some minor drippage its doing well for now . The others were not comfortable and always required special attention when sitting and standing . So in in for now gerry

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

leg surgery

Hello all had some right lower leg surgery lazer type work. Had some feel good stuff but was awake. Now the drugs are wearing off and it does hurt . Hope it doesnt get much worse . Not feeling very horney tonight at all.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

short out of device time

Hello today im released from device i feel naked and alone right now. no erection just a quiet bliss that seems good. feel i will be needing to be relocked in about 7 hrs so for now all is good.no urges to attend and will be at work for 6 hrs at least.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

remain secure

This week has been somewhat tougher as the horneyness has increased .Still need to stay in control. things are rolling along its much cooler and ball sack is drawing up too.Do feel the chastity is much closer to my body lately also. Well got to expect some changes as weather starts to cool too.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Well things are relaxing somewhat . The plastic is much more tolerable since the weather has cooled some too. Do feel it in pants and always notice it when the excitement levels increase. Well that what its for also

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Hello again , Today was uneventful. i feel i sort of got my head rearaged for the chastity time thats ahead of me Its starting to be less of a problem over all .

the restart of locked times

Well it happened a few days agonow it back in the training mode and rely on the cb3000 to get me thru the tough time s when i want to just masterbate every day. So it is starting this past thursday and it already saturday :)

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

continued chastiy

Well we seem to of done better than it first thought as now its a month latter and still remain locked. A bit more frustrated but mananging to hold on . Actually do feel some of the inside of the down tube now and do move a little inside.Have chatted with a few wearers but limited people seem to do this as erotic play .

Sunday, July 5, 2009

independance day

This july 4 th was a exciting day as wife removed the chastity device and made me cumm in her hand and she played with the release on my body .Then left me there to enjoy what has been a 5 week period in chastity .So we are back to the starting line again .

Friday, June 26, 2009

hot weather

Well today was a cooker and fortunatly it wasnt too bad at work . Remained chaste today and oderfree think i got a system working now.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

locked in hot weather

Hello fellow wearers and interested people . The cb3k and the carrera sort of create the own source of heat and sweat , and unfortunatly oder that has to be kept at a minimum. Now i know some of what women go thru just to feel fresh and oder free.
Did get a morning eection wake up call today and it reminded me of this status of remaining locked

Saturday, June 20, 2009

summer arrival this week

Summer has finally arrived and things are finally warming up and feel like normal again too.
My chastiy is progressing and feel much better as i continue toward new goals . Well it a goal more than much else currently hope to find some others with simular interests too.
Work is slow and seniority has few benifets but this is one of them.
Hope to wright more soon.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

the first day in a carrera belt

well it started with a burst of courage . felt i could handle this ! so snapped the lock and off to work i went . for the most of the day it was good untill noon i had the urge to dump. knew this was goingto be a issue as the rear is a center string type. so went into stall and the movement went well .went back to work and got thru the remainder of the day quietly and without and thing being said .

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

the day after

Well it went about as good as i could hope for a 1st timer only a sleepyness most of the day . After i got checked had good news so little to worry about.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

the morning before

Well had a good night sleep and not feeling hunger for some reason. stomach is grumbling and flipping some but ok right now. This should be a landmark day

Monday, March 23, 2009

now 8pm

Well the serious flush out is almost over. Feel drained now I get some beaf stock to drink yuck


little has happened yet took morning pills and only clear liquids.